dude imagine

dude imagine having a femcel girlfriend. at first, you don't get along with her, but you try anyways for a bet. eventually you get strangely comfortable with her rants. everytime you cuddle she whispers how you are trash and worthless, and she would be better off without you. she gaslights you until you forget your own name. you are reduced to a mat for her to step on as she pleases. you dont even enjoy cbt or the degrading stuff she does, but you are intrigued either way. she calls you abusive and accuses you of everything under the sun. you insist that the reason you are even still with her is because you just pity her, but in reality, you know the months of grooming and propaganda has corrupted you, changed you as a person, to agree with her extreme views and just want to be treated like a pig. you like the feeling of being choked to near asphyxiation, being under her, licking the dirt off the stinky unwashed femcel toes and being crushed under her weight. you like how there's no peace, she beats you up when you're sleeping, when you're working, or are in a dangerous situation with not one thought about your safety or health. in from of your own friends and family she degrades you, until all of them cut contact with the both of you. in front of her friends she gets even worse than at home, since she has a reputation to hold up. you know you can't beg since that will just make her stronger, but the thought of that doesn't seem too bad for you at this point.

not that i have experience, of course. don't even get me started on schizophrenic girls.

 

credit to grimly (pwnerofwrlds on discord)

Ego and Willpower

Here is a very easy, true fact to acknowledge- bowing to the ego is the opposite of willpower. This doesn't mean this ethereal "EGO" that seekers are scared of, it is those moments where you subconsciously think "hungry" so you walk to the fridge without consciously, mindfully deciding to. It's when you hit a roadblock in your studies and 'decide' to distract for a bit. It's when you have a conversation with someone but find your eye wandering to a nearby TV left on.

Ego-death (not in the drug sense at all) is willpower. Taking a step back from this base reactions is the ONLY way to gain willpower. There is not a single thing more or less that you can do than by constantly (gently! without ***SHAME***, or else you just fall into a new trap) withholding from whatever "you" want. This "you" that reaches for junk food, turns on the TV, checks your phone, ignores work, puts off chores, etc, is the one that will forever prevent you from growing.

Power and Godhood

The concept of gods gaining their power from worship is a very modern one. Back in the day gods were, and had power, irrespective of worship.

In fact, from a pagan standpoint you don't even really worship gods. You might revere and honour them, but it was largely a transactional relationship. We give you these offerings, and in return you help us win this battle, or give us a good harvest.

There are in fact instances where after disasters or bad harvests offerings were actually withheld because it was felt that the god didn't hold up their end of the bargain.

There are two ways to gain godhood - or any power, really.

Constellations, Demons, and Biblical Stories

Many of the demons or "fallen angels" are constellations in the southern hemisphere.

Abezethibou is likely Cetus.

Abezethibou is a one-winged angel that hardened the Pharaoh's heart and was sealed in a pillar of water when Moses parted the Red Sea.

He's also the unspoken archetype of final fantasy villains.

Asmodeus from the Book of Tobit is Piscis Austrinus (The southern fish)

Solomon had Abezethibou and another demon, Ephippas, raise a "pillar" for his temple. But it's more accurately called a rib or vault. The Milky Way.

Transcendence of Virtuosos

I've always had the idea that the afterlife was linked to who you were in your previous life. For example if you attained the skills of a legendary musician, I always played with the idea in my head that you could be reborn a God or a personification of music

Because this is what I feel when I would watch music videos of Steve Vai or Oscar Peterson.

I would feel they were almost master meditators. It seemed like they weren't thinking at all while playing, as if they are in deep trance or no thought. Unfortunately this is a level most musicians, even professional ones never reach. I mean PURE virtuosity. Becoming the music itself. Not just playing it.

How to Learn Chaos Magick in regards to Nation-Building

The fastest way to learn Chaos Magic that I am aware of is to imagine that you are literally living in a virtual reality. Most chaos magicians that I have met lose their minds after this point, when they lose track of where their imagination ends their perceptions of physical reality begin. If you lose track of which is which, then your soul's wave form will collapse, it will become ordered and your chaos ma
gic will have no efficacy. It is the uncertainty of your mind's own fluctuating coordinates in the web of consciousness that generates power for your magic.

The imagination is a powerful tool, because it can see where eyes can not. I will link you a clip from a movie that uses creative visuals to demonstrate the power of the imagination:

  

The Seven Ways

The Seven Ways, by Majin Boo Sama

The 'Seven Ways' represent different pathways towards the throne of chaos. They symbolize the seven 'directions' of space and are ruled by a respective lord/energy.

Ascending to the throne of chaos is known by many names across the world, it is at the heart of every mythos, religion, magic order, spiritual system, and anything in-between.

Some of these names include enlightenment, nirvana, gnosis, and anything else you can fit in there. 

The Ego and The Spirit

You should always seek out for your high-ego. Follow what your spirit calls.

The ego, or lower intellect, is an artificial intelligence, an automaton, a computer with personality programmed by genetics and environment. It arises partly from the human brain’s capacity for intellectual functions, and partly from soul’s capacity to be molded by worldly and bodily factors. The ego is the streamlined interface through which soul can operate more efficiently within physical and social environments2.

When spirit, the source of sentience, looks through this mask and identifies with it, the two together create our human sense of self. What we consider “me” is a composite of pure sentience (spirit) and personality (ego).

In summary:

1) Ego is something that arises at the boundary between body and soul due to body conditioning the soul.

2) Spirit wearing the mask of ego provides it with a sense of human identity.

Pornography addiction, masturbation, willpower, and demons

Pornography is a ritual in which your semen (life seed) is the ultimate sacrifice. That's why it is so difficult to stop to people who've been doing it for numerous times. Succubi and Incubi want their payment and the more you consume pornography, the stronger the influence of these demons are over you. This is done through habit. You find this alternative to produce more dopamine while doing less work for it.

Pornography associates sexuality with power and/or control. Both of those constructs are demonic. Playing games is one thing, actually believing in acquiring power or control via sexuality is another. Those two things turn eroticism into demonic ritual prayers.

Like in any game you pay the initial price before an ability is even activated. By deciding to jerk it you've already given your energy away. Shitting consumes energy. Sleeping consumes energy. Breathing consumes energy. You have a finite amount and literally everything you do minuses it.

The spawn comic was very near the mark in this regard.

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Reality, Dreams, and Self

You have to think, whatever this is, whatever you are, you're most strongly linked to "here". When you branch out, you get insights from out there, somewhere. But, we are ultimately pulled back in. You can't live here and be happy without investing in the HERE, though you get so much from looking out there. 

Reality as we perceive it is all a single resonance state of bosonic subatomic material. The other 'planes' of matter and material are resting upon any other resonate bosonic conditional planes. From the perspective of any bosonic plane, all other nearly identical bosonic fields/particles appear to be lesser bosonic fields/particles. 

The less similar the fields the more the separate fields appear to be fermionic fields/particles in relation to each other.

The mind creates. There's a pattern overlaid on everything. And logic demons. Once you start messing with reality (i.e: breaking logic/physics) the mind seems to counterbalance this with logic demons.

A theory exists that your "true self" (or your "consciousness") is the one with all the real power, but the catch